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Paragon
03:30
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I’m not in love with you
Because love implies the feeling’s mutual
Spin the revolver to decide our fates
If I’m alienated, stranded from the grain and granite
Then you make the planet’s fate look immaterial
And I know just what you’re thinking
That I built you like the Sistine and I'll burn you down like Alexandria
I’m a paragon of alexithymia
And I’ve given up on the idea of loving
But not of liking you
I’m not in love with you
I just see your eyes in every tree chopped down across the street
I paced around my house
On your birthday
The evening was warm if a little lonely
I waited all night just to receive your letter
It came two hours late
You sent it from your mother’s house in Norman
And frankly, you could’ve at least given me a warning
It was the only time I’ve both laughed and cried
Well, I won’t say anything about it again
I get the feeling that my lingering leaves the hairs on your neck flat and quivering
Why would you disdain a case where both of us are winning
You like the attention, I don’t even need to mention
Could we be everything we want that will destroy us?
I keep having evergreen dreams
Of meeting you on Christmas Eve
I wear your sweater and you wear mine
Former ghosts are there for decoration
And your words are sour, but you say I’m the killer
So what does it matter if you don’t feel the same way
You may have lived longer, but I have acquired more days
And we live in the same society
We’re getting ripped off and we’re scant on money
Who’s to arrange the order of courtship
I knew you were beautiful because those that are blessed always yearn not to be
The most pristine idealization I’ve ever created
And I’m almost always wrong
So I think you may be right this time
You drew a thin line in the sand, what else was I supposed to do
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I may have wanted to be yours before
But a mere crush seemed overdone
So when possible, sabotage crept right in
The rows of recalcitrant wannabe lovers who stabbed you in the heart
Makes you wary of a stranger with ambiguous intent
And I’m resigned
Only in darkness did I see the light
And I’m resigned
Only in darkness did I see the light
When my winter obituary came, you were charmed
By the lack of self-consciousness
And I held you in the highest regards
For balancing passion with restraint
You were accommodating of my overeagerness to analyze your every word
But when I catered to your every whim, you finally saw your mistake
While I’m surprised it didn’t happen sooner
Considering how it was framed
I came off as a pity-monger
You mistook arrogance and shame
But can you blame me for sharing too much
Maybe I’m still mistaking comfort for love
When every fleeting moment of kindness seems divine
What aim
Can be achieved from wry detachment from all that emotionally pertains
The song remains the same
And you criticized me for being too ambitious
At least I cop to that
But you strived for a sense of normalcy
That didn’t go so well
And if one tragedy renewed your faith
Two didn’t do the same
It’s not your fault that you’re unlucky
So perhaps only I’m to blame
You tried to let me down easy, but I fell hard as I always do
You can’t just assume everyone intends to pull the life out of you
And it was startling for me to realize
Something that meant everything in my eyes
Was an inconsequential correspondence for you pass the time
And I’m resigned
Only in darkness did I see the light
And I’m resigned
Only in darkness did I see the light
And I’m resigned
Only in darkness did I see the light
And I’m resigned
Only in darkness did I see the light
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The Heat of July
03:01
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You were listening to the hale
Reassuring yourself that you were good at being a liar
There was music blasting through the termite empire
You hated how much the singer sounded just like you
And you were waiting for a reply
Though you prefaced your letter like you didn’t mind
In the heat of July
Nobody ever gets out alive
And the seasons don’t seem to change
They just seem to spice up the monotony
The constellations have started to fade
They’re tearing down the forest across your street
So raise the bar to your pretensions
And lower the expectations
The idea that the world is no longer yours
Does it even need to be stated
And what are you to make
Of your childhood rising up like the rain
Doomed to either be forgotten
Or comically romanticized
You mentioned this once
You weren’t trying to be eccentric
Got no response
You figured “What’s the point”
Begging for attention upon your wounded knees
Chasing empathy around the trees
At least you don’t live in the suburbs
Count yourself lucky that you were never destined for analysis or glory
Whether you’re wrong or whether you’re right
All is fine in the face of the blue light
Where your eyes are mesmerized by the shoeshine
Of shadows created by self appointed gods
And if your faith in humanity is slipping
And there’s not much left for your heart to do
Then continue grieving
Then you may be surprised
That you forgot how to cry
Over the heat of July
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